1st Date in Two Years!

At the beginning January I decided to be proactive and work through anxiety surrounding "Dating." I decided to ask four boys on dates this year! One per quarter. I am not going to lie in January this seemed like good idea but about March it seemed like the worst  goal I ever set! I am not sure what I was thinking! I decide that I had to ask someone by Kyle's birthday! Well that was on Wednesday! After work I still didn't ask someone! I really didn't no who to ask mostly cause I wasn't super interested in anyone or a little to shy because we don't really like anyone! I decided to be a little less brave then I should have been and texted a boy and ask him to go with me to Chrome in the Dome! (I know I should have called I will be there next time in June) He couldn't go (he was going with his parents) so we were going to do something after! I let him decide and he wanted to go play Laser Tag! I did pretty good controlling the anxiety mostly because I was stressing about something else! (I was super embarrassed about so if you want to know about that you will have to ask me) I only had a small panic attack because He didn't really know that it was a date! But I called my mom and she talked me down! Remember that you have to walk in baby steps! On the date we went to subway for dinner. Then on to Outer Limits! I bragged was going to win! I really wasn't going to be able to win but I am all about trash talk with no ablity to back it up! Out of the 4 games of laser tag I won none! I lost once 3 hits to 18! I mostly just ran around screaming! It is super hard when you are just playing each other! As a matter of fact I lost ever game including connect four (I was sure I could win that one)! I only won 3 games- a video racing game and then a shoot the duck game twice! Then we also played pool and I stink at that! It was a fun date it was super good for me to remember that I am an excellent date! The only thing that I was a little disappointed because he didn't walk me to the door or open the door for me! But I had a good time!

This is what we bought with our tickets!

Just Few Things...

I have been super busy this week! Here are a few of my favorite things! Every Year it is tradition for us to go to Highland to watch Kort Wrestle! It is great!

We decided to take a Picture!

This is a picture of me trying to explain to my mom how to work my phone! Penny is paying such good listener!

Me still talking :)

We did it! 

There is something about a wrestling tournament that I seriously love! 

Then on Thursday Night I stayed up till 3 in the morning helping on Shaun and Ashley's Wedding Cake! It was super Pretty Amy did an excellent job! 

I read to Ruby! She is seriously my favorite person in the World!! 

She has such an amazing little person! She has a great personality! I love Her!

Suppose that the Lord loves you!

I have had a love hate relationship with institute! I have hated some classes and absolutely loved others! I have a very favorite teacher! His name is Brother Sheldon! He is super amazing! What I love the most is that when you asked questions he always goes to the scriptures! He has no problem saying when he doesn't know the answers! He usually tells you some scriptures that you should read and then he always says that is something you should fast and pray about! He always gives us things to study (one day I might do that) He also says some really funny stuff in class! The title of this blog is what he said in class today! He said "Suppose that the Lord loves you" Oh the class was laughing super hard! Ok maybe just Shaun, Natalie, and I! He then corrected himself to say "The Lord loves you suppose he wanted to let you know when his coming is, what group would you have to be in?" I have taken Teaching of the Prophet Joseph Smith-Teaching of John- Isaiah- Both Old Testaments from him! Seriously I love him!

I hate Valentines day but I do believe in Love

So lately (I really mean like the last few months ok really years) I have struggled with love! I would go from totally not believing in it to believing in it for everyone else but me to thinking it was a load of crap! (I feel like I should clarify that I am not talking about family love -I know my family loves me a lot more then I deserve or friendship love - I have amazing friends that are super amazing and stick around though the craziness!- I am talking about love love the kind in movies and books the cool kind that is a bit aloosive and if you find it you it is a tender mercy of the Lord) So in my love hate relationship with love (hahaha I think I am so funny) I have observed a few things! Number one the Love in movies and books is real but like most things it is messy in real life! I think there is a person that you can seriously love with all your heart! That makes you a better person! That some times  you turn around and think wow how did I get so luck for him/her to choice me! This stuff is real but what the movies/books fail to show mostly because it wouldn't make a good movie is that same person is a fat head sometimes. That same person has the ability to turn your life up side down, make it every difficult for you push your buttons and make it so you don't want to be around them all the time! Sometimes they make you want to do things you don't want to do! But the fact that you make it through  those patches make the good parts better! I have seen this in real live through people around me! Couples that stay together because they chose each other! They decided it was worth it! That even though it gets rough and feelings get hurt they can also mend! I have also seen brave people lives when that person has walked away! They are left with just pieces! These are the amazing ones, people who had love and had it smashed by the choice of another person! Those are the people who I have learned the most from in Love! That even though it hurts and your heart is broken it is worth it to try again! Love with the right person for eternity is worth trying for! Broken hearts mend but real love has no words that can describe it! So after years of observation and my counselling I will take baby steps to work on being in a place were I could fall in love! As Doris Day sings in a very popular song "When I fall in love it will be completely or I never will fall in love"! But when I fall in love I will still hate Valentines day! Stupid day made up by the candy, flower, and chocolate companies! I will not fall into the consumerism! I will celebrate Love on a different day!

Valentines!

Kimberly! My super Awesome sister in law make Kenna and I this beautiful Valentines bag! Isn't this the Cute! She is so talented!

Kenna! My beautiful sister brought me the chocolates and bear to school! So cute! The Bear plays One Direction's song you don't know your beautiful! She made my day!

The Rose was anonymous! But through my Detective skills I found out it was Kortni Tolman! (she brought one to school for her sister also) 

Sinus and Double Ear Infections Hopes and Dreams Smahed

On Thursday after it took me like five minutes in class to figure out that I needed to scroll down on web page in order for it work and giggling at myself my class decided that I was to sick to come to school on Friday! So I took the day off even though I wasn't dying! When I had stayed in bed all day Friday I felt better then I sat up and I could really feel the presser! So I did what every 27 year old would do! I called my mom and convienced her that it was her parental duty to take be to the doctor! So after one of the quickest doctors appointment ever! I found out I have a sinus infection and a Double ear infection! When we went to the Fred Meyer to pick up the precriptions we meet some girls on our way out! They tried to sell us something! When we got into the car my mom said I think those girls were gypsies! I was so mad that she wouldn't let me talk to real live gypsies! That is one of my dreams! Maybe they could invite me to one of their weddings! But not now because she wouldn't let talk to them! Rude!

Leaver!

I am a leaver not a putter awayer! I leave things every where! I will eventually I will pick it up but it really with be eventually! Lately I have been looking around and I have a left a few things namely Jewerly!

Like on the Microwave!

The Shelf going down Stairs! 

The Shelf by the window! 

Oh the Shelf still by the window! 

Wait! One more for a total of Three! 

On my dresser!

The bathroom counter! 

My Bed!

Just so you know! I went around and took all of these pictures earings and didn't pick one of them up!