Believe in...

Sometimes I struggle! Like seriously with anxiety and loneliness, pretty much life. It doesn't happen all the time it is mostly when I am alone in my room at night! What always stops it from getting to bad is I am surrounded by people who believe in me! They are my friends! I have the best friends in the world! They are more then just friends they are family (they just can't come to Indian Creek)! They keep me solid when I don't want to be! They laugh at my ridiculousness and love me for who I am! They let me talk and work things out even when I talk about the same things over and over again! I would not be the person I am today without them! My family loves me no matter what! The poor people get the worst side of me and they still love me! I feel their love all the time! It is what pulls me from the dark places and set my emotions right! It tells me what I think I am feeling is not right. I am loved by a huge group of people who would go to bat so me anytime! Family reminds me that my Heavenly Father loves me! That it doesn't matter that I fail in the same things all the time! I know that the Savior know us! I know that the love he has for us we don't fully comprehend but if we turn to him we can find peace and love! Words can not express how thankful I am for the people that believe in me.

Kyle

So Kyle sends the most Random things in packages! He is super funny!

This are empty boxes of matches! Yes empty boxes about 9 of them home! 

Some dish towels for my mom, 2 pairs of his cowboy boots! And Bag Balm! Why because it cost $10 and he didn't want keep it but he also didn't want to throw it away! 

Cups! As a early Christmas Present! Why for two reasons! 1st because Nathan loves the cups at our house! 2nd you can never have too many cups!

So I decided to send him a shirt! In his package just about as random as him! 

I drew a tree first then a deer/elk/reindeer! I decided to label everything just incase he didn't understand! 

I drew Idaho! I love Idaho! 

This is a horrible picture of Texas! That is why I love Idaho Best! 

Karlee and I! We both made shirts! 

And a volleyball I was quite proud of myself!

I sent this all today along with stuff my parents gathered for him! I forgot to send a letter with the package! I am a horrible sister!

Stake Conference Talk

      A few weeks ago I got a call from one of the members of the stake presidency! I thought about not calling back I convinced myself that if I was going to talk in stake conference they would have called more then just a week ahead! Lies! They were calling just a week ahead! My topic was how institute made me a more covenant person! HARD! 10 to 12 minutes! I am not going to lie it was hard to prepare for this talk because I couldn't really go to the scriptures on how institute help me be a better person! Natalie really helped me write the talk we talked about all the classes we have been in and what we learned from them! Jill helped with that too! I went to the temple to think about the structure and what people needed to hear from me!
   I was super nervous! I was almost late because I was taking so long to get ready! It was a little rough! May different people have asked me how it went! It is always so hard to tell how your talks go so let me just share a few highlights! During the talk I told the whole state that I am really bad at talking to boys! I know that my arms were flaring because I could see my mom trying to get me to hold them! Then I preceded to tell the whole state that my mom was telling me to hold me hands! The first was a little bumpy! I think to think that I pulled it together at the end but I am not sure it happened! The reviews from people have been overwhelmingly good but sometimes when that happens it makes you wonder if that was because it really was good or because they all felt bad for me!
    I just got a letter from the stake presidency that I would like to share not to brag or anything like that I am sure they sent this to every speaker but to remember it in my blog book! Things like this won't happen to me again! The first part cracks me up:

Sister Melissa Wilding
Speaker (Just in case I forgot what I did)

Dear Melissa,
    We would like to express our appreciation to you for the wisdom and council you shared with us in state conference.

Your preparation was evident by the spirit you brought with you as you taught each of us about the importance of Institute and how it has affected and strengthened you. It was very inspiring.

Many lives are touched in conference by the gospel messages given, and yours was one that touched us.

Thank you again. We appreciate your continued faithfulness and willingness to give of your time and talents. May the Lord continue to bless you for your example to others!
(Then it was signed my our state presidency)

I thought that was very nice of them to write this letter! It makes me feel like my talk might have been better then I thought it was!