I have Graduated!

No not from grade school or anything super cool like that! On Monday the 7th of January I graduated from counseling! Now many of you are thinking what! I am thinking of course! In October I had a small break down in the Bishops office! I had be very stressed out and my anxiety levels were huge! I have always had anxiety but usually in levels that I can push through (I owe that to my Mother she never let me giving into the anxiety she always made me push through it)! This time it was different! I wasn't talking to the normal people about what I was feeling I just stopped talking to every one about things like that! Those of you that know me are things not Melissa but yes Melissa stopped talking about the important, I was only talking about fluff! So by the time I got to the Bishop's I was breaking down! What was it about school, church, and boys (mostly my fear of them and dating -In my defense it is really hard to work through your anxiety about dating when you aren't dating) [Hense why they going on four dates this year is a big deal] Any way back to the story! My bishop ever so kindly (seriously he is the nicest person in the world) suggested that I go to counseling! He set me up through LDS Family services! My first appointment was October 23rd! I really didn't tell anyone that I was going not because I was ashamed I just didn't want anyone asking about it I knew I needed to do it on my own! It was so hard to go to that first appointment! My anxiety was off the charts! I feeling out the paper work crying because I couldn't handle it! But I faced my fears and cried all the way through the first session! Not because we making covering big issues or because it was sad but because I was scared out of my mind! I went to about six or seven sessions! None of them as bad as the first! I usually cried but none of the tears were unnecessary! I need to hear a lot of the council that he gave me! It was not really anything that I hadn't heard before from my family and friends, but this time it was unbias! I could tell that he was impressed with who I was and were I was in life! He helped me realize that I may not of lived my life exactly how I planed it but I was rocking it like I had planed! One of my favorite things he said to me was "Melissa you will get married. The Lord is preparing him for you!" I was a little shocked because he almost quoted one of my blessings! So on Monday when I told him that I was planing on going on four dates this year he laughed and said I am glad and Melissa I think that you are ready to graduate! I feel ten times better then I did in October! Are my issues solved, no way! But I am reminded that I know how to deal with them! I know that there are certain things that works for me, like going to the temple and talking to people! I am dealing with my anxiety, because I can! And some times you just have to choose to be Happy!