Christmas Vest!

I wore this to school on Friday! Because I am super cool!

Christmas Cookies!

I seriously wait all season to make Christmas Cookies! I love to invite people to come with us but I let them know that take your Christmas Cookies very serously and it is not something to be trifulled with!

Ruby loved pushing the cookies cutters down!

She also did pretty good at decoradting! She would squeeze when I told her too!

The Happy Decorating Group! It was Ryan's first time he did pretty good!

Ruby eating a cookie!

So adorable!

Traditional Hula Girls!

Best Buds forever!

Very Serous! 

Our Missionary Group!

Cliche Christmas Party!

Jill, Natalie, and I come up with the best ideas! We decided to have a Christmas Party where we would do all sorts of cliche things like Chestnuts Roasting on an open fire!  Here a copy of the invitation that Jill made! I wish I had a picture of it from the front! It was so cute!

We had the most amazing food! It was a lot of fun sitting around and talking with people!

This is the group with their white elephant gifts! My pose is for the Roberts sisters! I knew they would love it!  

Best group ever!

One of the funniest things was the Pono in his holiday sweater he made himself! The stupid light was super bright!

I love real Christmas Trees!

I love Christmas Trees! I am pretty pick be cause I will not have a fake tree ever! I love going to get them but the last few year I haven't been able to go to the mountains! I am greatful to my Grandpa who cut this tree down for me a little bit illegally! But I love him just the same! My Dad picked this tree out for me!

It is a tad big! 

Right after this I dropped this tree on Alex because the wind was blowing to hard! 

Ryan was nice enough to cut this tree for me to fit in my house! The only problem was we are not the same size!  He looks so cute! 

All its glory! 

I love it! 

The Snowflake top! (Kenna stole my star! Or took her star back! Depending on who's story you would believe!)  

Love it! 

Love all my ornaments!

Thanksgiving and Frozen!

We all know my favorite thing about Thanksgiving is stuffing! It is the only thing that will get me up out bed so early! I love the people that come to the senior citizen center! Both the family and our regulars! But I have to say this little girl who was my favorite!

 After this Thanksgiving we went to Frozen! My new favorite Disney meeting! 

This is the happy crew!

Best Friends

Anyone who knows me know I have a Best Friend that stayed with me for about 23 years!  When I was 5 I moved into the house that my parents still live in! And even though there is a bit of disagreeing on who initiated the meeting met, we met when we were five! There are people in this world that you are destined to met, it part of Heavenly Fathers plan! Natalie is this person to me! Some times people who first met us can't believe that we are best friends because of the way we treat each other but that is how Natalie and I are! It has always been that way! Our Sunday school teacher used to us "Let us all speak kind words to each other"! But I know that there is no one in this world that has my back quite like Natalie!

 I know that there is no one who understands me quite like Natalie! I have to say that there would have been no way I could have survived junior high without Natalie! In high school she used to say that there was a special place in Heaven for her for being mine friend! I would quickly reply yes right in the mansion next to mine! As adults our relationship has changed but I think it think it is stronger! Natalie is still the person who is there when I need her the most! She is still the person who will let me talk and tell the same stories over and over again because I need to process them! She still rolls her eyes every time that I volunteer her for something (somethings will never change)! She is still the person who will never let me forget when I have said something stupid! She is still the person who finds me funny when I am not really that funny! I have other best friends who I love dearly, but the highest spot will always go to Natalie she has earned it! 23 years with me is a long time. I am truly greatful that she puts up with me, because I wouldn't be me without Natalie!

I did it! Number 4!

I did it I went on 4 dates this year! A very small feat to the world but it is pretty amazing for myself! As I relflect on these dates they weren't as hard as I thought it would be! But that is the thing with Anxiety, it isn't about logical you know it doesn't make sense but you still feel it! I shed a few tears but probably the most on this last date cause of coarse this had to be the kicker! So if you have read this blog in the last year you may have heard of my friend, Justin. After some strong encouragement from friends (even Natalie's coworkers) I decided it I would ask him! The was the first time I would have to do the whole thing all the way through! The asking the planning every thing! I went down to Utah to see Melissa (at the first of November) and I was felling exceptionally brave so I made the goal that Sunday to call the next day after work! After some great encouragement I did finally call him! I prayed that he wouldn't answer the phone and he didn't which is what I asked for but it created a little bit more anxiety because if he didn't call back what was I going to do! But he did call back! It was a pretty awkward execution but I did ask him if he would go out with me! He said yes and then we planned it for Thursday! But on Tuesday he canceled because he had play practice he didn't know about! So then the date was postponed to the Wednesday before Thanksgiving! AHHHHH! Which for a normal person would be fine but me I struggled! I really wanted to cancel but I didn't want to have to call him again! My anxiety was out of control at times but I think it was very important that I learn that I can handle it! I felt like I needed to go on this date not nessicarly because of the boy but for myself! I needed to know that I am bigger then my anxiety! My will power/faith is bigger then my fear and it doesn't control me! Finally when the date came I didn't cry! I was super proud of myself! It was very difficult to decide on what to do so I just stuck with something super easy and that I loved! We went to 5th street bagelry! We talked a lot! Both Justin and I are talkers! But it felt  very comfortable! On this date we discussed polictics (only a little), how the dinner party was a date (the world was right and I was wrong!), how awkard it is for me when he called me babe and honey! Pretty much everything! When went to my back to my house and I gave him a long list of things we could do and then through in paper hand turkeys just or Natalie to be funny! He chose the paper turkeys!

I am not very good! I mostly copied Justin! Mine is orange and Justin's was black!

 So over all the date was great I was very so greatful to be done! I even have a whole moth left to just have fun not anxiety! Wooo Whooo! I am very proud of myself for doing things that I didn't want too! I feel like I am taking my anxiety in my hands and making it smaller! It won't ever be gone but I know that I can concur it! I am a Daughter of God and can do anything I want to! Because my Heavenly Father loves me!