Thursday, July 6, 2017

Infertility and Baby

So the year of 2016 was so hard I had multiple cousins and a Sister and two Sister-in-Laws that announced they were having a baby. I had to learn to be happy for other people. I would be lying if I said I didn't cry everytime someone announced but I tried to do it with just Dave and my mom. Someone should never have to feel bad because they had the precious blessing of being a parent. I got better the more people announced. I serious tried to be happy for people while I told myself  all the bad things that happens when dealing with children and why parenting is hard. We started to plan a DisneyWorld trip and I would focus on my masters. We still took the clomid and paid attention to my oviliation. My period was really famous for showing up 5 days after my period should have started so I had a rule that I couldn't take a test until 5 days after my period should start. Dave just so happened to be home on a Thursday and so I texted him that when I got home I would be taking a test! I was freaking out all day! I was so nervous I peed all over myself. Normally in the passed it takes a while for the marks to appear but this time it was instant. I took the stick into Dave and he was like what? I and I said we are having a baby! I think I was in shock! I knew how to handle a negative test but a positive test. So we decided not to tell people. I even saw my mom and didn't tell her. We took an expensive test to make sure that it was right! Well the next day I had one of the most anxiety filled days I have ever had. I called the nurses station 4 times because I couldn't talk about it to anyone else! Dave worked till 9:30 so by the time Dave came home I was sobbing. All my thoughts about what goes wrong sure did bite me in the butt! The only way he could calm me down was to pick out baby names for me! These whole pregnancy it seems to be the go to move for Dave! I am not going to lie I am not the glowing type of pregnant lady! I am the grumpy mean kind. I get super offended at the first of the pregnancy. I finally told Dave that I had to tell my mom so that I wouldn't die and so I could call her and ask her my questions. We found out when I was about 5 weeks along. I didn't stick to the don't tell people rule very well! I told a few people and then a few more.
A picture of one of the pregnancy test that I took!
On Valentines Day we had our first appointment. It was exciting to hear the heart beat and to see a picture of what was suppose to the baby. I couldn't really tell what was the baby but here is the picture. 
I sent these out to let the rest of the Family know. 

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