My Family loves me! They have this weird amazing picture in their head of me that sometimes I think are we talking about the same person! I received this text message from my Aunt Allison:
Hello there Miss Miss! I was wondering if I could ask a favor? I know this is not always an easy subject, so if you don't want to to do this I totally understand. I'm talking about Relief Society on Sunday and the mission of it. Part of my talk is about strengthening homes and families and I wonderd if you would be willing to provide some perspective on how our single sisters can still embrace this principle and find fulfillment. I hope I have not sounded insensitive, know that I do not mean to be. You are such a good example and have remained strong and faithful even though I know your life circumstance is not exactly how you desired it to be. I feel you have a testimony others might benefit from in their struggles. Love ya! Feel free to say no!!!!!! :) but you can email me if you choose to share your thoughts!
We all know that there are very few times when I choose to not share my thoughts... ok never! Here is how I responded:
Aunt Allison,
I have been thinking about this and I hope that I can pull my thoughts together! I am a bit of a spastic writer so if something doesn't make sense feel free to let me know or fix it so that you can use it! I am not going to lie I think that being single is one of my biggest trials in my life, but I have learned things that have helped to cope and understand my purpose in the church and in life!
1. Attitude! I remember during a relief society broadcast a talk that President Uchtdorf gave that really changed my attitude towards being single! He told a story of a sister that was faithful who wanted to be married but turned bitter and mean and became angry at God for not blessing her with her hearts desired because she was a good person didn't she deserve a family! In her anger and self-petty she missed many opportunities to serve and be a surrogate mother to people around her! This story hit me hard! I knew that I was headed down that path! I am a pretty amazing person (hahahaha so funny, Clearly I have an issue with pride) yet I was not married! I could see myself in that story I could see myself choosing to be bitter about what was being denied me. So I decided in that meeting that I wouldn't do it! I would be that person! I would look for opportunities for the Lord to use my "mothering skills"! I find them every where! I find them at work with co-workers and even students! I find them at home with my roommates! I find them at church! Being in the older group in a singles ward I have many opportunities to share with people things that I needed to know when I was their age things that helped me through college!I find them in Visiting Teaching. I feel like I am strengthening families this way because I am strengthening people who are part of a family, who would one day have families.
2. Purpose! I know that the Lord has a purpose for me on this earth! He has a plan for me and if that is not to have a family then I will find what it is! I know that my life has meaning and that I need only ask the Lord what I should do! I feel like part of my purpose in life is to find those who need to remember who they are, who need to know that the Lord loves them and because the Lord loves them they can do anything! The Lord is always in their corner!
3. Trust! This is the hardest one for me! I have been promised that one day I will get married but I have to trust in the Lord that it will happen! It might not be in this life it might be in the next (my mom once told her whole RS that I was going to marry a soldier from the War of 1812 Lovely!). It will be a very tender mercy if it happens! I believe that every marriage is a tender mercy! We have to have faith and trust in the Lords timing! I have decided that I don't want just any guy! I want the one that will love me for who I am! I am willing to wait for him and trust in the Lord that one day I will find him!
I know that the church is true! I know that Jesus Christ is our Savior. I know that because of this I am never truly alone! i struggle with loneliness sometimes but because of my knowledge this is why I can pick my self up by the bootstraps and move one! I know that in times of trial and frustration all I need to do is turn to him and I will find peace and comfort! I know that Relief Society is of God. It has a divine purpose to help further the work of God!
Sorry this is so long! I am very long winded!
Love,
Melissa
What is funny is that Aunt Allison didn't know that this is something that I have been struggling with for a while now! I think it is because a part of me this last year thought that because I have tried to make myself more open to boys and love that something was going to happen! I was super annoyed that all I got was a lot of anxiety! But I am ever so grateful that for the opportunity to refocus myself and remember the things that I have learned! I am so thankful that my family thinks I am awesome cause it really make me want to live to prove them right!
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