When I was hired at Highland the principal/other teachers said that I was hired to take the place of the librarian that was soon to be retiring! I laughed because I was a history teacher and it seemed like the librarian would never retire! Then we got a new principle so I totally thought I was of the hook! Then at the beginning of the year I found out that she was retiring and I thought oh gravy what am I going to do! So through out the year I would randomly think should I try and be the librarian at Highland... hmmm I didn't know! I had a every rough 2nd tri! I was teaching 4 different classes 2 that I had never taught before and 2 that I had taught for the first time the tri before! If you would have asked me in March if I wanted the library job I would have said Heck Yes! But this last tri was a lot of fun I loved my students! They were crazy but I loved them! My babies started to graduate! Students that I had started teaching with! They crazy student that chased me around the classroom as a freshman trying to give me a hug (Don't worry I gained more control over the classroom after that) is now going to basic training this month! I was so proud of them and what they might become. Around the beginning of May the district cut the positions of all of the librarians! I was ever so grateful I didn't have to make the decision. The about two weeks before the end of school year the board reinstated them! Blast crisis was to adverted! So I went in a told my principal that I was interested in applying for the job! What was the harm in applying! Well.... On Friday before memorial day the principal and vice-principal pulled me into their office and offered me the job! What!!!! I was suppose to interview with a bunch of old ladies and they were going to clearly see that I was not a good choice for the job! Are you serious? Have you heard how loud I am? But there was no convincing them other wise! They said that there was no one better for the job! No one who bring the change that needed to be there better then me! I started to get a lot of anxiety! Ahhhh! I told them I needed the weekend to talk it over with ... well just myself cause no one could make the decision but me! (yes that is a quote I didn't want to let my principal know that I couldn't make decisions without talking it over with my parents like I was a child!) Now I was full of fear all weekend! Why because I knew that I was probably going to except the job! I am not sure why but I was going to take it! After multiple pros and cons list- taking with friends- praying- and a blessing I decide I was going to take the job! I felt good but I was also scared!! I am not good at doing new things! Every things was fine until I cleaned out my classroom! I cried and cried! I made Ryan come and help me take down the decorations and then my Dad come take stuff out for me! I was so sad! I started to get anxiety about my new job! Why would you switch from something that you love to something you can be successful at but might not work! I have finally have control of what I feel! I know that this is a new challenge but this is my year of challenges ! I am going to look at this position as a chance to make a difference! It will be difference from what I was doing as a teacher but I can still impact students lives! I can still get them to do things that will make them better people! I am excited for the opportunity! I am going to grow! I am become a better person! I am very grateful for the chance!
I am really going to miss this room!
But this classroom does not define me! It is a part of me and my past but there is so much more to me then the walls of a classroom! I will still be able to teach! I will just be borrowing people's classrooms!
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